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Episode 4 of IN THE TIME ZONE made by Victor Enns and Murray Toews is brought to you by the Letter D. I will add more text tomorrow, but want to send this out tonight.          

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Telling It Like It Is (some nights)

BEDTIME ACCOMMODATIONS Shrink sock on my stump glasses on the night table gauntlets on my wrists and forearms mouth open meds riding the water slide of my throat mouth-guard so I don’t grind all night. Richard Hines Photo There I said said, a diaper around my bottom like the cartoon of a New Year’s baby

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Pain & Death on Sunday

“Stay safe and stay positive.” So I’ve heard. Just take a look around; let’s just be, be breathing and be in any moment we choose. Tell you what. I’ll bring the darkness, you bring the candle to light. These two short poems are by Charles Bukowski. Check out my first annotation (getting its own page)here.

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excerpt form pain room

FRAGMENT Pain. My feet, up my legs, my hips, my back, my hands No longer hold, fuck the centre, when eating hot dogs fails To raise my spirits I can confirm we and that includes me Were born to die. Not soon enough for some and that includes me Unable to find a painless posture

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Pain Dialogues 2

Conversation with George Bataille Who are you? Victor There’s a name to live up to I play a little game I lie about the pain the victim does the same. That’s unhelpful. You keep repeating yourself. From where were your parents. Russia, first Germany, Enns River. you claim to be russian german and a pacifist!?

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Some Assembly Required First Published: September 24, 2020 This video will be publicly accessible until Thursday, November 12.   MY LIFE IN PIECES is a videocast autobiography in ten minute instalments, now going up as a separate page on my website and Patreon site. Pieces is a rolling story picking up fragments of my life,

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THE PAIN DIALOGUES 1 WTF -Fuck off. -No, you Fuck off. -Oh yeah? Well fuck you! -Fuck yourself! -Asshole. Just You wait! I’ll fuck you Till you’re bruised And blue, fuck. -Fuck yourself, you don’t have one original line! -Just yours, fuck your miserable bones, Jimmy, I’ll fuck you up, like there’s no tomorrow. You’ll

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Our Bodies, Our Pain

Showing our pain, our selves We start by showing our pain to our parents and our partners. At first, it’s easy. We take our skinned knee inside and one of our parents gets a Band-Aid for our boo boo, wipes the grit away. Some antiseptic, and the bandage will protect us, especially once we have

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Concerning Choice, Acceptance, and Disability

Author’s note: This is my story. Many people feel and think quite differently than I do. I believe it’s necessary and important to make room for diverse and multiple narratives of pain, suffering, mental illness, and disability among ourselves and visible to the public. I had a hot button pushed (of course like most I

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I was on CBC RADIO NOON, but couldn’t “find” my words. This is really frustrating and why I call the longer essay Pieces Of My Mind, as my words and my thinking feel like scattered pieces, and yes, I’m mad as hell about it. Let me see …how about a do-over.[1] Write it out.   

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