All I want
is to disappear
suck the disappointments
I have made
down the vortex
never to desire
never to want
never to make
give me pain
give me shame
give me suffering
cry cry cry I have towels
to wipe my cringing face
It’s dark in this hole
but I must be sitting
I find my flashlight
examine what it is
I sit on not a wheelchair
not a chair at all
but a box like in a play
with a lid and my little
light finds a crack
I pry open
the cube which
contains another box
with the word
PERSIST stamped on it
I open another box
stamped with PERSIST
inside that box I find
a heavy rock covered
with eagle shit tagged
JESUS WAS HERE