I have been accepted in. to the Medical Assistance in Dying (MAiD) Program. I have been diagnosed with dementia, and my arthritis makes every day a challenge. Having the paperwork doesn’t mean I’m climbing on a gurney, despite my “archives” video by Murray Toews, I was going to describe it when all you have to do is click on the Archives button. Before I switch out my light I am self-publishing one more book n ow called My Death Notebook, Mein Todesbuch in German (my mother tongue) with the wonderful illuminations by Murray Toews who has the largest bunch of stuff from me for decades. Once again, you won’t see the word “poems” though I notice a trend now to call anything published in shorter form poetry. Too soon to talk about the book much, but happy rto say that Maurice Mierau has come on board as editor, Production at Relish and printing at Friesens. I completed the poem NOTHING, just last week and it sounds a bit like Jimmy Bang has arisen again. So here is the ending, planned for February.
NOTHING
I am pissed at Jesus God and religion
got no business messing with me
messing with my soul, so fuck off
Jesus, God and religion or I’ll piss on you.
I’m fixing to die die without you Jesus
God or religion. I’m choosing my menu
having fresh strudel and Kick Ass Black Coffee
a hot bath like my picture and then and then
Nothing. I got great veins easy for the IV
and when. The chill begins to flow I’ll smile
you know I’m going to die with nothing to believe
nothing to believe in, Jesus God and religion
Piss off don’t you know, more people have died
for believing in God, Jesus & Religion we should
all be pissed at the soul mongers, fish and loaves
show up you fucking bastards and feed the kids in Gaza.
Yes, I’ve made a donation, not anything near enough
the doctors and the journos who may be
who may be telling the truth so long as they believe
in one thing only, that’s our very life itself.
My time is done today without you Jesus
God or religion. I’m choosing my menu
having fresh strudel and Kick Ass Black Coffee
a hot bath like my picture and then and then
Nothing.